I never thought that a situation contained within Second Life could change me fundamentally but it has. When I became so emotionally invested in a person, a situation and, most importantly, a belief, I didn’t realise what would happen when the rug was pulled out from under me. I’ve spent months cocooned in my own little world, protecting myself and staying away from people as much as possible. I kept waiting to feel better…and I waited….and waited. Just this week I had an epiphany…there’s not a miracle cure. If i plan to sit around waiting for me to magically feel better I’m gonna be waiting a long time.
I need to make changes. I need to control the situations I find myself in that affect my happiness. If I don’t take control of this situation and how I feel then I am still letting someone else control my emotions and no, no more. Never again. Just as I posted that accepting I wasn’t in the wrong and believing in myself was needed to be the first step in feeling better, so to do I have to realise that I can’t expect the engine of my emotional motor to start working again if I am not prepared to fill up the gas and turn the key. I’m going to get out what I put in and I’m not putting in negativity, sadness, anger and disgrace anymore…this engine is gonna start running on fun, laughter, positivity and happiness.
Exploring is something I want to do way more of and I started with KiLu sim where I took these pictures. It’s the work of Kimbra Iridescent and Luis Lockjaw and is very relaxed, laid back and gorgeously designed. I don’t think this will be my one and only visit and highly recommend you add it to your places to visit list.
On the list of places to visit for shopping you should really be checking out Enchantment this round! I’m wearing the White Widow Neverland tattoo which, apart from being totally stunning, is available at Enchantment from today in both black and white versions.
And so, my butterfly is flapping her wings and stepping out of her cocoon and opening her eyes with renewed hope and happiness for what Second Life will bring in the future.
With Love to all, Kess x
Body – Maitreya Lara
Eyes – IKON – Sovereign Eyes
Tattoo – White Widow – Neverland **NEW** at Enchantment
Skirt – =Zenith= Ranger Skirt
Chestpiece – =Zenith= Leather Ranger Breastplate
Hair – Moon Hair – Boa
Headpiece – =Zenith= Muted Coven Horns
Poses – Posesion
Location – KiLu