My Own Worst Enemy

I’m generally quite stable when it comes to my mood. I’m outgoing, gregarious and positive 99% of the time. When I do have a mood swing though I go from one to the polar opposite.  It usually manifests itself in every tiny thought of self-doubt that I’ve ever had magnifying to a million times their normal size and dragging me down with their weight.  There can be a number of situations that can trigger those feelings of insecurity and an overbearing feeling that I’m just not worthy or good enough sometimes.

I don’t like myself very much when I do have those days and I certainly don’t expect others to like me either. Of course, that just then reinforces those negative feelings of isolation and unhappiness. The other good news is very few people ever see me when this despairing mood hits me. To all but a select few I will still be the outgoing, gregarious, fun-loving person they see every day.  Trusting someone with knowing that you can be a broken mess sometimes is terrifying.

Credits:

Head – Lelutka – Cate 3.0

Skin – Glam Affair Milena

Hands – Maitreya Bento Hands

Ears – Mandala – Steking Ears

Eyes – IKON – Sovereign Eyes

Arm Accessory – PerveTTE – Dream Arm Chain **NEW** at 4MESH

*Necklace – Dahlia – Bingley **NEW** at FaMESHed

*Hair – Moon Hair – Fallon  **NEW** in Sept Luxe Box

*Dress – Scandalize – Kaylas **NEW** at Shiny Shabby from 20th September

Rings and Hands – Zaara – Siya Hand Harness and Stacked Rings

Pose – K&S Poses – Loveliness