So I bought myself a larger house than I usually go for. I love decorating so I’m half excited at the thrill of digging through my inventory and unearthing some buried treasures now I have space for them and half nervous of the time it’s going to take me to get going. The great thing is there’s lots of new releases to add to the house too! As I had this super set from Cheeky Pea to hand I figured I would start with the kitchen and dining areas. I was listening to a stream I had picked up while I decorated and the Blur song that is the title of the post came on. Now, most of my friends know I am most definitely an Oasis girl and a woman who loves the 90s music wise from Seattle Grunge to cheesy 90s boy bands…there’s not much I don’t enjoy to listen to from that era. One of the main joys of music is how it can inspire you with ideas and bring back the most poignant of memories. Over the last few years I’ve spent a lot of time thinking about the 90’s and how they have shaped me.
A couple of years ago I had a ‘crisis’ of sorts. I was having some chest pains and palpitations and I went to the Doctors in fear that my lifestyle and age were finally catching up with me. As far as I knew that is the only reason I was going to the Doctors. I sat down and she asked me what was wrong and I burst into tears and I couldn’t stop…for what felt like hours but was probably only around 10-15 mins. The palpitations were caused by anxiety and I was diagnosed with depression. I didn’t think I was depressed – it was not what I imagined depression to be. I booked myself privately into some counselling sessions and after a few weeks the counsellor revealed something that I had never considered before. In the early 90’s I dealt with 4 of the 5 biggest stressors in life in the space of 11 months. I got a mortgage, bought a house and moved out of home, I lost my Mum, I got married and I had my first child all between August 1991 and June 1992. When I lost my Mum I was pregnant with my daughter and I remember saying to myself…you have to get on with it…grief is no good for the baby…deal with it and move on. I pushed all of the feelings and emotions down and music helped me get through all of it to the point where I didn’t even realise not dealing with it properly was an issue. I still didn’t realise til that one day a couple of years ago during that counselling session how much that period had affected me. It’s one of the periods of my life that added to my resilience and that’s stood me in good stead over the years. It will probably help me complete decorating this house too! I’ll be damned if I won’t get it finished soon!
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[ba] hayden house **NEW** at C88
*Cheeky Pea – Modern Farmhouse Sideboard **NEW** at N21
*Cheeky Pea – Modern Farmhouse Dining Table **NEW** at N21
*Cheeky Pea – Modern Farmhouse Armchair **NEW** at N21
*Cheeky Pea – Modern Farmhouse Bench **NEW** at N21
*Cheeky Pea – Modern Farmhouse Place Setting **NEW** at N21
*Cheeky Pea – Modern Farmhouse Fruit Basket and Cutting Board **NEW** at N21
*Cheeky Pea – Modern Farmhouse Neatly Stacked Dishes **NEW** at N21
*Cheeky Pea – Modern Farmhouse Wine Rack **NEW** at N21
*Cheeky Pea – Modern Farmhouse Mug Clutter **NEW** at N21
*Cheeky Pea – Modern Farmhouse Pendant Light **NEW** at N21
*Cheeky Pea – Modern Farmhouse JamJar Flowers **NEW** at N21
*Serenity Style- Endless love Wallart **NEW** at Shiny Shabby
*Serenity Style- Endless love blind A and B **NEW** at Shiny Shabby
*Serenity Style- Love you country frame **NEW** Group Gift for All About Home Group
*Dutchie animated stove **NEW** at FaMESHed
*Dutchie wood basket **NEW** at FaMESHed
Apple Fall Silver Antiqued Rabbit
Apple Fall Poppy Seed Loaves
Apple Fall Coffee & Muffin
Apple Fall Bed Warmers
Bazar – Arizona-entrance rug
junk. harvest frames.
{anc} flottante puppy
the glamour sauce 