On Sunday I posted on my facebook account about how I had been feeling for the last couple of weeks and why my friends had seen some changes in my behaviour…specifically me pulling away from their friendship for a time.
I have never found it easy to discuss my feelings and that was part of why I started this blog…sometimes it’s been an outlet to help me rationalise and deal with things that were spinning around in my head and making me dizzy. Writing them down forced me to go through a process of ordering them, considering them and became a cathartic process of being able to let go of some of them.
In my facebook post to my friends I described a particular cycle of withdrawal that leads to guilt and shame about abandoning my friends so I withdraw further and so on and so forth. I was overwhelmed by the response and many messages of support but also the burden was lightened by realising that so many of my friends do the same thing and feel the same way from time to time.
When dealing with depression it’s very easy to slip into a mindset where you believe you’re the only person that can possibly feel this way. It’s one of the many ways the demons in your mind beat up on yourself.
This blog, Second Life, my ‘virtual’ facebook…all of these allow me an outlet to communicate about issues, thoughts or emotions that I couldn’t or wouldn’t do on my real life accounts. The support I receive from my readers and my friends is one of the strongest and most powerful reasons to understand that our virtual world is a force for good and that for many, the social aspects of SL are, at times, a lifesaver.
Body – Maitreya Lara
Eyes – IKON – Spectral Eyes
Dress – =Zenith=Lace Knit Coat Dress **NEW** at The Seasons Story
Socks – fri.day – Lazy Socks **NEW** at Wayward Winter
Shoes – fri.day – Cora Heels
Rings – Meva – Rings Set Silver
Pose – Standing Pose – addme Poses
Location – Frisland