I’m not gonna lie…this week has been tough on my emotions and my patience…and Lord knows I didn’t have a whole heap of the latter in the first place!
I talked a few weeks ago about the shocking news that a cousin of mine had passed very suddenly in Egypt. She was buried the next day and this weekend we had the memorial for her with friends and family in attendance. My father and his wife have been staying with me over the weekend as they wanted to attend and whilst I love them both my Dad is a short tempered man and my stepmum has Alzheimers. That simply does not make for a relaxing weekend. So, I was rather glad that I had booked today off work to recharge the batteries and have some alone time after they had left.
I’ve also talked a lot in the past about my SL relationship and my feelings and ‘recovery’ from that. I made the decision a few weeks ago to take a very different outlook and to stop waiting to feel better about things but to actively change my own attitude to make that happen. I’ve been more open to the idea of dating again and already made one or two clumsy mistakes but I’m trying very hard to not ‘beat myself up’ over them. I’m far too used to blaming myself and I’ve found that with my new outlook I’m able to be a lot more subjective. My closest friends know I still do more than my fair of ‘Kess-Bashing’ when I’ve made a mistake but it doesn’t drive me into a fog of anxiety anymore.
The biggest realisation for me of late has been that I quite like myself. Actually, I like myself a lot. I like myself too much to let anyone put me down or make me feel inferior. I like myself to the point where I’m not going to let anyone pick me up and put me down at their convenience and then expect me to be sitting there waiting when they get back.
I like myself…I hope you, other people, co-workers etc like me too…but if you don’t that’s fine…I like myself enough to live with that.
Body – Maitreya Lara
Eyes – IKON – Sovereign Eyes
Hair – Truth Hair – Nathalia
Hat – MadPea – Raymond the Raving Reindeer **NEW** at Tannenbaum Holiday Market
Jacket – Fishy Strawberry – Padded Jacket **NEW** at Uber
Leggings – Maitreya – Leather Leggings
Boots – fri.day – Emily Boots **NEW** at N21
Location – Kaleidoscope